It seems like every time I visit some sort of sacred land something marvelous happens. Today was no exception however small and subtle the messages were. That’s usually how the Divine Feminine shows up, you have to be very still, listen, and you’ll know that she’s always been there.
Today I was blessed with the opportunity to visit my local megalithic garden with one of my new friends. In some of my previous posts I shared how I joined a 5D community group with some locals in my area, and this woman that traveled with me today was the reason it began. She moved here with the intention of meeting like-minded folks and starting spiritual groups where we can discuss solutions and new ways of being & existing in, you guessed it, 5D. The first time I met this woman I was so surprised. I drove to her house blindly and didn’t know who I was meeting. When she opened the door I saw one of the biggest smiles and was greeted with such enthusiasm. She had hair white as snow yet her spirit was timeless, her aura radiated like white angelic fire. Something I’ve noticed about her is she can always find the positive, the 5D in any situation, and the spiritual meaning of anything. It’s been an honor, really, to be in her group and presence. She is such a big soul here with a big mission yet as of right now there’s just a small group of us that are able to receive her messages. The first time I met her we chatted for a few hours about star beings, inner earth, and spirituality in a way that I’ve never been able to talk to another human about before. She seems to be on such a similar level to me which I’ve never encountered before either and it was truly a blessing to find such a kindred soul. So of course she would be the perfect person to bring with me to the local megalithic gardens…
I wore a yellow jacket today. Yellow seems to be my new sacred-site viewing jacket, and one that totally empowers me in my solar plexus. There’s been a few things that of happened this year I haven’t shared yet on my blog or the YouTube channel that have sort of brought the energy in my solar plexus down. My boundaries have been trampled on several times and it’s been hard to get back up to decide that yeah, this is my path and I want to be doing this. I absolutely love talking about spirituality and 5D living, living a heart & soul led life, star beings, earth beings, & everything in between. I just absolutely love this world and apparently there’s many other people who love this world too and don’t have anyone to talk to about this. The thing is... I just can't be that person for sooo many people, or even invest most of my free time to someone without getting anything in return. In the past I contemplating doing sessions and such, and creating that sort of boundary for myself could be a solution for energy drain.
I think it’s super important to have friendships that are physical in our lives that we do feel safe with these topics and we can share our truths, no matter how "out there" they are. There’s always people around us who are willing to listen, and you’d be quite surprised the people around us locally that believe in the stuff too. We’re not the only ones scattered about the planet. I realized this after I had my boundaries shattered last year when I put all of my energy into one friendship that would never fulfill me. I realized then that making friendships online only would never be a solution for me, even though it seems so sprinkly and fun. That’s why I devoted a lot of my time this year to looking for people in the physical world that I could spend time with who did love & cherish me, and though it’s taken me a while to open up, to be friendly, & open hearted with them it’s been so worth it. I don’t feel like I need to have exclusively online friendships anymore, and I won’t be pursuing them.
My yellow jacket makes me very noticeable, so I told my friend I’d be wearing it and she could find me at the bottom of my driveway when it was time to pick me up. She saw me bright and clear from her bright red car, I hopped in and we headed off on a metaphysical adventure up the river. It took us about an hour and a half to get our destination, however we had so much time to talk about everything our hearts desired. Inner earth. The mysteries of the land we live on. The true meaning of a lot of the constraints that are on humanity right now. And the truth of that, the truth is that we choose everything that we experience in our lives. We can choose whether or not we want to participate with what’s being projected to us or not. It’s actually really beautiful to think of it that way, we can at any time, so if you don’t want to participate in those things that bring you down - don’t - because well, they’re just bullshit.
The day started out absolutely perfect. As the universe would have it we arrived at our destination at 11:11 AM, something that we definitely didn’t plan especially having to go through all the construction zones to get there. It was divine timing if you ask me. Immediately we walked into the first building, the dragon’s hut, a place with dragon energy. We knew right away what we were going to experience here.
We had similar questions to ask at this location. When attending sacred sites it can be fun to have an intention of why we’re visiting, and questions that we want to ask spirit while we’re there. Last night I felt a strong urge & importance for me to do an oracle card reading and to pick certain gemstones to bring with me to help with whatever energies wanted to come through at the megalithic garden. If you’re not familiar with megalithic gardens, they’re a plot of land that have a collection of many different types of megaliths. This one in particular had some notable features. There were several stone circles - the main one being three different rings in one and absolutely gigantic. Also upon the land were a labyrinth, a dolmen, and several other standing stones each with their own specific energies. There were a few cordwood buildings with thatched roofs, a representation of how things can be made with nature only excluding anything man-made. There was even a structure that has solstice alignments where the sun would shine through a beautiful window of limestone into the center of the structure where three witnesses watched it, the witnesses being large standing stones. All of these features are carefully positioned with intention for spiritual growth and alignment. There is no doubt that we were going to be receiving something from this place, the sacred land that some brilliant person decided to build a megalithic garden on. What an honor.
As soon as I got out of the car I knew that my shoes had to go off. For me I need to be grounded in places like this and walking barefoot helps me with that. I decided to bring out the feminine part of me and wear a dress. This has been my inner work this year, truly embracing and embodying my femininity. I haven’t been sharing this because it’s sacred to me and I don’t want to share it, but I have been working very closely with the Divine Feminine and the Goddess, really healing those parts of me as they’ve been so hurt and broken in my life. It was because of my inner feminine healing that I was there today. Most of the spiritual work I’ve been doing lately has been about healing my feminine side, stepping into a priestess role, and really letting Her take the lead in my life.
We came to a half-circle of stones, the center stone being like a cracked egg. Immediately, I was thinking that I had to put my hands on it. The energy exchange through my hands like a tingling madness, I felt the power coming through the stone. I decided that it was time to lay on it. Next to me I looked at my friend and she was doing the same thing on a different standing stone, yet she was laying vertically against it with her eyes closed and I just internally laughed. Never in my life have I experienced another kindred spirit doing these things with me that I just so naturally would do on my own. I was so excited & happy to see that she was enjoying this place just as much as me and that she was aware of what could happen here, what she could receive. We both closed our eyes and felt the messages coming through the stones.
Something similar came through for both of us. She took off her shoes and laughed to me because the stone was screaming at her to take them off and to be grounded. I had to giggle along with her, because I knew even before I came that part of the mission. We snickered onto the next stones, suddenly realizing that if we laid on each stone like this, we’d be there for three days. On the egg, I received that I was getting energy reclamation here. Like I said earlier, I had my boundaries crossed and I gave much of my energy to other people without receiving anything back and it was so important for me to call my energy back to me, whether that came through the stone circles or came directly back from where I gave it. Sometimes soul retrieval and energy retrieval doesn’t have to be like that, where you have to get it exactly back from the person who you gave it to, however it’s better to move forward and have stronger boundaries and to receive any energy you need directly from Source, or if you’re into working with angelics or nature, those are two good options as well.
On a stone bench made of white and black granite we decided to sit in meditation for a short time. The question that we wanted to ask was, what was our purpose for being here? What did spirit want to give to us in this place? And of course we both wanted to know if they were any star beings that wanted to connect with us here. All of these questions were put out into the ethers as we sat in silence on this bench basking in the sun with the water in front of us and several standing stones towering out of it.
I couldn’t help but smile, here I was sitting in a place that I found so sacred and beautiful and a place where I could fully come out and be myself with another human besides Austin. Usually Austin will accompany me on these excursions and though he loves me dearly and is always there for me, he isn’t as invested in spiritual growth as I am so we definitely don’t sit and meditate and do really deep stuff like this together all the time. And let me be clear there’s nothing wrong with that, I am very happy with him as my life partner and I am grateful that he is my anchor to this planet. Here I was sitting with a friend who was just as interested in these things as I, meditating on star beings. I never thought I’d see the day. After those cheerful thoughts passed and received my message, I sat and watched the blackbirds sing and teeter totter on reeds in the pond. She came out of her meditation and we just sat there together. I asked her if she’d ever done this with anyone else before, if she’d ever been able to go on a spiritual trip like this and to go deep with someone else and she said she hadn’t. I told her that the purpose for us being here together was for us to experience this together. It was the first for both of us and it made it truly special. Shortly after I said that, a cat came from my left and immediately jumped on my lap and cuddled with us for the next 30 minutes we sat there. We were both astonished there was this very friendly cat. I told my friend that we intended to call upon star beings and what do you know? They sent us a kitty. The lyrans perhaps?
Later we found out the cat’s name was Hazel, and that she was the #2 tour guide of the megalithic garden. We didn't know that at the time and we found it to be special to have such a loving and friendly animal guide us along the way. The way we knew she was a star guide though was when we asked her, “Are you a star guide, are you a star being?” As in reply she reached up to the stone necklace around my neck and started to bite it playfully. I looked over at my friend and said, “This is a Moldavite stone,” and laughed hysterically, the cat seemingly knew the meaning of that stone. I explained that Moldavite was a space stone and that it's one that can help you connect to star beings; my friend laughed along with me. We started asking the cat questions because surely she was a star guide here to help us. Without much answering we decided it was time to move on. We were surprised when we got up to walk to our next destination and she followed us to it. Right then in there I knew she was going to be with us for the duration of our journey.
After a short sit we decided to move onto the big stone circle. This was definitely my favorite part of the gardens. The stone circle was massive with some of the stones towering over 20 feet tall on the outer ring, and the inner two rings made of stones with the most beautiful and exquisite colors. A common theme for stone circles it seems is the use of certain stones like limestone, gneiss, granite, marble, basalt, and other stones that are metamorphic. The area I live in has those stones naturally occurring in the landscape, so many of the stones at this place were sourced locally which gives this place another unique character trait.
We took turns putting our backs against the stone towers in the circle receiving various bits of information. I found a flat stone embedded in the ground that I decided to lounge on and closed my eyes as our tour guide came and sat by me. She cuddled on my lap for a little while and my friend came out of her trance and exclaimed, “Avalon, this place has the energy of Avalon!” Hazel got up and elegantly perused to the cube stone in the center of the circle to peer in the distance. So. Many. Synchronicities.
"I've been doing work with my inner feminine this year! And Avalon has been one of my main interests - that and Morgan Le Fay..." I replied enthusiastically, revealing the excitement of the synchronicity.
I'm not talking about the Arthurian legends, I'm talking about the 5D Avalon, the Avalon where the divine goddess is from, where people worship the goddess. I've been asking the universe for information and more books or videos about this topic, and I trust that which comes to me over that which I seek out. Maybe that sounds strange, however I find that when I allow things to come to me it is exactly what I'm looking for, and when I search things out obsessively I have to sort through a lot of stuff that I may not be interested in. So surely what I was receiving here was stuff that was important.
"You know, I just watched The Mists of Avalon, it is a series about Morgan Le Fay. You can get it at the library, though I recommend you watch it earlier in the day. I watched it at nighttime and was up late because I couldn't stop!" she answered my thoughts and prayers for more insight.
The recurring message that I was getting from the Stone Circle was that now is the time, the return of the Goddess. We don't have to worship and treat anybody as the one true goddess, but rather this is a turning in worlds and worshiping our own inner goddess. This is about honoring ourselves, our desires, our hearts, our devotion, and our needs. This is what worshiping the goddesses is to me, and I feel like I'm coming into this more deeply myself.
We continued on our journey and decided that we were going to visit the dolmen next. When I was in Ireland, one of the sites I wanted to seek out there was a dolman. Dolmens are sort of mysterious in their purpose, people aren't quite sure what they were used for in ancient times, but I surely know that they were used for spiritual reasons. Freddy Silva talks about how dolmens and other structures out in the UK and Ireland were used for resurrection ceremonies for spiritual initiates who wanted to go on a spiritual journey and come back a new person on the solstice. My friend thought that perhaps they were used by women in ancient times for women's mysteries purposes, things that I'm still not totally aware of that I am very interested in. Hazel the cat led to the dolmen, and this time she went in front of us and guided us the entire way with her ringed tail swaying high and went inside.
I decided to follow her and I sat against one of the pink granite rocks holding up the roof of the dolmen. This for me was really potent. The spot in particular was the strongest for energy downloads that I have experienced at this megalithic garden, and it was a straight download to my pineal gland. I sat against the rock and all I could feel was a condensing of energy into this part of my body, the energy buzzing and so strong and so expanding yet also constricting at the same time. I asked what this was and the message I received was it's a download of ancient wisdom and the info that I was receiving what's going to be revealed later. This often happens to me, I will receive something and I'm unaware of what it is, or I'll ask a question in meditation and nothing will come but the answer will be revealed on the journey. This is sort of how this excursion was for the both of us, our questions being answered during the natural flow of the walk barefoot.
Hazel led us out of the dolmen and walked us along the forest line to the labyrinth. I really love the labyrinth at this place, and each time I come I must go through it. The labyrinth is the feature that usually concludes the journey for me. I knew that when we were going there that this would be the last thing that we would see even though there were other features to the garden. My friend went through first after chatting on the bench for a while, and Hazel went into the center of the labyrinth to rest by the rock before making her way into the forest to bid us a-do. I decided to sketch my adventure in my sketchbook. Something I'm trying, though it's very hard as a writer, is to express myself through pictures, music and poetry instead of being so wordy and writing so many things. I absolutely love telling stories and writing long blog posts and novels, but after experiencing such darkness I'm finding that it's important for me too use different methods of expression, especially in those dark times because writing out dark stories just makes them more powerful. Although this trip that I was having with my friend was not at all dark, I wanted to still practice my new sketching journal and I wrote down in pictures what we were experiencing.
While I was sketching a woman we met earlier on our journey came down the path and met with us. She glanced to my side at my friend and said quietly to me, "The woman who created this place is in the gift shop now. If you are quick, maybe you'll get to talk to her!"
"That was so kind of you to walk all the way down here to let us know that, thank you!" I replied as she smiled and trekked her way up the hill.
Once my friend got out of the labyrinth, I told her the news the woman gave me and she jumped with joy and gathered her things to make her way up the hill. Her intention for visiting this place was to meet the woman who created it in to see where she got her inspiration from. Oh my friend and I are very open with spirituality, metaphysics, human history, Lemuria and Atlantis, really it seems like there's no topic we cannot talk about when it comes to the hidden world of things. I knew she was curious to know if the owner was anywhere near our level of “cosmic concepts.” I told her to go on and I would catch up later. I stayed back to go through the labyrinth myself.
As I winded my way around the curves, barefoot upon glimmering stones I contemplated my journey on the priestess path. I had a sort of awakening maybe a year or two ago that I lived a life as a priestess in the UK during the times of the witch burning. Most of my lives that I've been able to see that I can remember have been centered around being a caretaker of nature and guarding portals into other dimensions. The purpose of my lifetime as a priestess was to caretake a forest that had much violence in it and to bring beauty in to clear the energy of the past. Renewal. My partner and I lived as the druids, however I'm not sure if we were actually druids or if we just practiced a nature religion. We lived in complete harmony with the nature around us, honoring the place we inhabited with respect and love. One day, although I knew it was coming, we were taken away and never returned to that land because we were unfortunately murdered. In that lifetime I knew the truth of the soul and knew that this wasn't going to be my only life. I remember laughing when the end came because I saw all the other humans as such fools thinking that they could destroy something that could never be destroyed. Truth.
I continued around the circle and reflected on how much I've grown this year, how much I have transformed from being very centered around doing and becoming something -to- allowing myself space & time and BEING myself. Although I am still doing much that I used to do, it's coming so effortlessly and easily in the spaces between my human duties. I'm seeing that it's so important to have a balance between having a human life and serving someone whether that's in a job or doing something for the community, and then having a spiritual life where I can also serve and show up for people to help them awaken to the their spirituality, heart & soul path. I could not do one without the other, I need to be able to function in society so I can serve those who are yearning for soul connection with themselves and to make their best lives.
Along the path I saw a lone luna moth wing. It was dried & sun bleached yet the moon on the wing was still intact, and surprisingly the wing was very sturdy. I picked it up and grinned, what a blessing & a gift from the goddess to me on my path of initiation of being a priestess in this day & age. I have been feeling like an imposter claiming that as a title for myself, a priestess, though after reflecting on this much I have realized that I am indeed a priestess in the way that I live my life. I am very devoted to my soul and heart path and there's nothing that can take me off path. I want so dearly to help others find this for themselves too. I realize that being a priestess is not anything to be an expert about. It's not about being like a nun, it's about being true to myself and true to my own inner divinity, the divinity in everything & everyone, and honoring that deeply. Of course you can worship a goddess or you can decide to practice witchcraft, however I just find myself being a priestess by the way that I silently send prayers to people, holistically work with the land, how I value meditation and energy work, and caring for nature in the best way that I can.
I reached the center of the circle and closed my eyes as I sat on the stone with the moth wing in my hand.
The wisdom that came to me was that I graduated the high priestess initiation. That I went through all of this and I made it to this point. I intuitively went on this path not necessarily knowing what I was doing, I admire myself for making it to this point and to be like, yes I did it. As I stepped out of the circle I said thank you and immediately a turkey vulture flew over me and a dragonfly almost smacked me in the face.
At that moment I realize that our cat guide Hazel was the loving guide who showed us the way to accessing the divine feminine wisdom, the influence by being inviting others to join by their own free will. Something my friend and I talked about on this journey was how we could exist in 5D and exist in such beautiful lives here and how there could be people in this world that don't want that for themselves. There's a lot of people who aren't ready to let go of suffering and who will suffer to get anywhere in their lives. We can grow in life without suffering, we can grow in life with love and it seems that my friend and I have found that path. Both of us will hold space for others and try to teach others that way however many of them aren't ready for that and they don't want to hear it. It can be so disappointing when all we want to do is help. Something that I've learned over the years is - don't give advice unless it's asked for - so that's why I've been so open to sharing my life, sharing so openly on this blog and on my YouTube channel about my experiences as a 5D being here on this planet. Though I have gone through much suffering and much trial, I know that it was so later I could teach others and share my story so they know that they don't have to stay stuck in that suffering. I found a way out through love and grace. This is the way of the divine feminine, she is silent and will come if you call her, but you must seek her out for her to reach out back to you.
On my way to the visitor center I stepped back into the dolmen. I felt an impulse that there was more I needed to download. I received some interesting information and I'm not sure if it's entirely true or not. This is something I struggle with as an intuitive; the messages I receive are definitely truth to me however I can't declare that they’re truth for everybody. Everyone must be responsible for their own discernment. The stone told me dolmens are entrances to Avalon. Only those initiated and attuned can actually enter into the dimension that Avalon is in. I watched the world flow by from the inside of the dolmen and felt this however I didn't shift myself. Anyone can access and see Avalon, however it is a spiritual path of initiation and vibrational attunement that allows one to go. Those who are not for the highest good of all may not be able to get through, as Avalon is up here in a high vibrational place.
I made my way up to the visitor center and quickly met the owner before my friend and I began our walk back to the car. This was truly a special day for me not only to be initiated into my priestesshood, but to share this experience with another person whether she was aware of that or not. Something that I think is important for me on my path is to share these divine experiences with other people, and for me to do that I need to be comfortable having these experiences with others! I feel like this is the beginning of a new chapter not only for me but for my friend as well. We are both new to this area, and there seems to be a great need for this work here which gives us plenty of opportunity. It is also truly amazing to meet people in your soul group in the physical and to spend quality time together. I wouldn't have come to this point in my life if I didn't ask for it, yearned for it, set intentions for it. I can say that I am lucky and that may be true, but it's because I aligned myself with that which I desired that it came to me effortlessly. I wrote a song called Four Leaf Clover, in it one of the lines goes, “Luck’s an illusions it’s the alignment that shows.” Perhaps this is a very masculine thing to say, perhaps it's not, however this is a truth that has been cycling for me. Luck is just the result of having a desire for something, and having a desire for something is a feminine trait. Luck is another word for synchronicity, for having our prayers met, for accessing the quantum field. Luck isn't just for special people, it's for everyone and know that whatever it is that you are yearning for you can have it, you just have to allow it and claim your worthiness to it. And that is all.
I hope you enjoyed this post and I hope this inspires you to go out into your community to meet like-minded folks like you. If you're here reading my blog chances are you're interested in star beings, sacred sites, earth energies, metaphysics, and 5D living. Know that this is available to you right now. You can have community if you just set your intentions for it. I ask that you decide to leave suffering behind, it's no longer necessary. We're already living in the fifth dimension, it's more about attuning yourself there and to enjoy without doubt. If you feel like you can't find people like you, even after setting intention, maybe go inward and ask if you're supposed to start something and be a leader. Even though it's hard and scary, it's time to come out of the closet and to really honor and embody who you are..
Sending you much love,