I woke up this morning feeling great and so ready for the day. I was feeling like I could accomplish anything!
Then I went thru my day and slowly lost momentum. Austin and I were hanging out with his brother watching Spongebob (my favorite show in the world...) and then we got some movies going... and then the day sort of slipped by. Though I didn’t “get it all done,” there was plenty I did. I’m transitioning my store off of Etsy and onto my website, and that shit takes a lot of time and work...
I decided to get a therapist to help me through some stuff, and today I had my first meeting with them. They kind of knew what was going on since I wrote them twice this week. I immediately started crying and cried for our 45 minute session. I was pleasantly surprised when they used words like, “kindred spirit,” and “free spirit” with me. It’s odd when you meet someone new that you really needed. This happened to me a few months ago when I met someone new through a Facebook page and something in my soul just clicked with the person. I felt this with my new therapist. It felt refreshing and I’m so glad I decided to go through with this. We talked through some things, and I felt like I released so much I didn’t know I was holding on to. Sometimes people tell you something you needed to hear, and it helps to let go of something that has been on your chest for who knows how long.
Because of Covid, I went through an online service where you can write a therapist and video call with them once a week. It’s been great so far. I didn’t know how I’d like meeting over video call, but so far I’m totally okay with it.
If you’ve been thinking about seeing a therapist for mental health, I hope this is your call to try it out. It’s not scary. I’ve seen therapists before and it is always helpful, even if you don’t realize it right away. Having someone neutral to talk to and to know only you in your life journey - without the bias of knowing who you’re surrounded with - is a breath of fresh air.
I’m ending this post short yet again as I’ve waited till the very end of the day to write. May you have sweet dreams, and I’ll write to you tomorrow!
Day 17, 252 days to go